You could be uninformed about a certain person and make decisions based upon faulty perceptions. Seek a third person’s advice. Although you want to sneak away, pressing work issues may keep pulling you back. Complete your tasks and then enjoy some relief.
An important key to self-confidence is preparation. - Arthur Ashe
Incredible but true: One of the reasons marijuana is illegal today because cotton growers in the 30s lobbied against hemp farmers--they saw it as competition. It is not chemically addictive as is nicotine, alcohol, or caffeine.