You are interested in exploring the unknown and what is on offer in areas that you've never really understood. Friends and family members may not clearly grasp what you are doing, but follow your heart and be true to yourself. You feel annoyed that you cannot achieve the results you want today. You need to work on methods that will accelerate the process.
I guarantee you that when some life threatening issue occurs to you in this moment the last thing you'll be thinking is "What a miserable life I've had". You'll be completely in the moment and dealing with that and that only! – DT
Incredible but true: About 43% of convicted criminals in the U.S. are rearrested within a year of being released from prison.